I’ve been journaling but I haven’t felt inspired to share anything with the world lately… until now!
For those of you who have followed me for awhile now knows that I LOVE fitness, yoga and meditation. I am a certified group fitness instructor but I have been waiting for the world to give me an opportunity to teach. I’ve applied to gyms but it’s actually a difficult process since I have no experience. I do have personal training experience, teaching my coworkers and I taught one other time in my life in a meetup group as a favor for my friend. I remembered feeling absolutely terrified yet so incredibly thrilled to share what I love I enjoyed every second of it.
Earlier this month, I decided I will stop waiting around for people to give me an opportunity. I decided to form my own meetup group. The response was great! I have around 80 members in my group now!
Last Tuesday, I held my first meetup event. I felt so nervous and since it was an odd Tuesday morning hour, I only had 1 person rsvp. Olga. Olga didn’t show up at the set time and I was slightly disheartened, feeling pessimistic that she might back out since she knows she’s the only one. Perhaps, at the same time I was secretly happy that I don’t have to teach a class afterall. But she arrived!
I gave her a workout and we had a fantastic time! She treated me to breakfast after and I know we’re going to become good friends. She also just moved to San Diego the same time I did and she moved from New York City! She did so on a whim, without really have a plan. She just felt like there was something about San Diego that was calling her to come. Just like me!
Tomorrow, I will be hosting my 2nd meetup and I have 5 people coming! It will be my first actual group class! Olga will be joining again 🙂 It feels good to know that I have a friend and cheerleader to support me. As you can probably guess, I’m freaking excited and I have to admit I also feel nervous. It’s totally venturing out of my comfort zone but it is something I need to overcome! I’m ready and I don’t need permission from the world. If there’s anything you want to do, give yourself permission! Let me know what it is and how I can support you in the comments!
Deep down, I know I have the knowledge and skills to give a good workout. At the same time, I want to be liked, I want to entertain, I want to be… perfect first. But I have to remind myself, teaching is not about that. It’s about sharing what I love and how I do it, be authentic, I don’t need to convince anyone. Those who gets me will stay. I have to just trust myself. That I will get better in time. I know when the moment arrive, I will totally enjoy the experience of leading a workout, but until then, I cannot contain my excitement!
What I really want to do is to create a supportive community with meditation, yoga and fitness being the thing that connects us. I feel like there’s just so much loneliness in the world and people are starving to form new connections, not as acquaintances but as genuine, nonjudgmental, supportive friends. Like the connection that I have with my yoga tribe members. I have such a good feeling that I’m living my purpose now. I feel like everything I’ve encountered, the darkness, the loneliness, depression before was to lead me to this very point in time and place.
Wish me luck tomorrow!!!