I didn’t go to work today. I’m not exactly sick but I’m using a sick day. It’s that time of the month and I decided to give myself a break. I felt kind of guilty because I left work early yesterday too. Yesterday’s pain was excruciating.
The boyfriend had already left for work so I had the whole place to myself. Even though I was in a lot of discomfort, I enjoyed laying in bed with the kitty. I kept saying to myself, ah warmth, ah, cat, ah, bed and all this pain is temporary.
I started to meditate. One new habit I’m trying to form is to meditate in bed instead of snoozing. (The phone alarm is on snooze though.) I lay in bed to breathe, slowly waking up my different body parts with my breath and attention.
I learned this from reading the book The Art of Power by Thich Nhat Hanh. I was at the library and I came across this randomly. He writes about true power, not the kind of power commonly known people seek through wealth, status, ego, but power in all people to do good and love one another. He teaches us how to regain self control over our senses and desires, calm ourselves and how to harness power to do good. It’s very enlightening and I highly recommend it.
After meditating, I totally could have gotten out of bed and gone to work. But I decided I have enough sick hours to let myself off the hook to just enjoy the free time that I’ve given myself rather than to swim in guilt. I got up and made myself breakfast, (ham and eggs), did some work (answer emails, scheduling), brewed myself tea, put on some piano music and did yoga.
The boyfriend got home and we started working out together in our home gym. Him being him, me being me, together. Then I realized, I’m having an amazing day.