On desires, expansion and love

For awhile now, I wake up with a slight unease.  What do I need to do today?  The thought of commuting to work depletes me.  Perhaps I’m just a little tired.  On most mornings, my army of Gratefulness rages war against these energy depleting thoughts. I know I’m not alone in these emotions in regards to their jobs so I disregard them, like what most people would do and then drag themselves to work.  But deep down I know the unease is caused by my new expansion, yet I’m still settling for what I used to be. This morning I woke up a little earlier and I sat with these emotions.  Here,...

SF SomArts Cultural Center: The Black Woman is God exhibition

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I had a fantastic time at this art exhibition that took place on Saturday, July 23. I danced to the jazzy rhythms.  I couldn’t help myself but to sway to the beat of the drums.  I was moved by the powerful lyrics and poetry.  I went into a booth and in it, I recorded a little message to my inner child.  There were florescent artworks that shined brightly in the dark.  What is dark, but only an absence of light? There were many little sanctuaries of worship, with portraits of beautiful black women hung at high heights.  It does not command obedience nor approval, instead it showers you with compassion...

Beware of Yoga

So I’ve been doing this crazy thing called yoga for over two years now.  I think I might have accidentally gotten too stretchy physically and mentally.  I got so in tuned with these things inside me called feelings that I began listening to them.  I literally don’t want to do anything when I feel like I’m in a bad feeling state.  Now I can’t even work hard.  I turned into a snob and I only perform actions when I feel like it and if it makes me happy.  That is totally unacceptable for society and I can’t even conform to it anymore.  Yea, yoga can make you a little cookoo....

Should I adopt a 2nd cat?

I spy another stray cat lurking in my yard. My current cat, Meeyore gets so angry when this new cat on the block comes around that she gets batshit crazy on the window blinds!  It was a little shocking and terrifying to see Meeyore in her fight mode!  She went from her sweet meows to ROAR! YEOWW!! BITCH GET AWAY FROM MY WINDOW! I love my cat.  I wonder how she would take it if I started feeding her nemesis? Yeah, I’m gonna start feeding that poor one out there. I already named it Helena....

On loneliness and healing

My boyfriend is out of town and I was home alone yesterday evening.  I worked out.  It was a good workout.  Slightly out of breath and super sweaty, I gulped down the entire glass of water.  I placed the cup on the table and looked around me.  Nobody was home.  It’s times like these when I have nobody to share my happiness with that I become overwhelmed with loneliness.  Still so many hours remain of the evening.  By myself. Naturally, I wanted to reject these feelings. How can you feel lonely when you have a pet?  (Well, cat is in the other room, sleeping.) How can you feel lonely when you have so many friends?  Did you forget...

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